Monday, March 19, 2012

building a mystery?


 
food list
breakfast: banana, fair trade green tea, naked juice (blue machine)
lunch: two tangerines, broccoli and cauliflower, pineapple, applesauce, nut mixture, coffee
dinner: big salad, two vegan banana muffins

origin of a item
after a long weekend away (and forgetting that i bought a bunch of bananas before we left), i came home to several pretty brown bananas. when i first became vegan (for the first time), i bought a ton of vegan cookbooks...and those are the only cookbooks i own. so, when i made my muffins tonight, i modified a recipe from the joy of vegan baking. i modified the recipe to include oatmeal and left out the chocolate chips i was supposed to add.


theological/ethical reflections 
sometimes i'm beyond bored. i'm tired of the same old things and i'm tired of trying to think of ways to break eating habits. i'm tired of trying to think about what i'm eating and why. i just want to eat. i'm aware of the fact that i'm not even that good at eating well

but, i want to give up and give in. i want to throw away the old bananas and not care if i'm wasting or composting. i want to eat like a "normal" human being--without my brain working on what i'm eating. i want to stop at the nearest mcdonald's and eat french fries until my pores are leaking salt (ok, i do not actually want to do that).


food remains a mystery for me. i'm not sure i've made any real strides since ash wednesday, but i'm more interested in the mystery pf all that it means to be a human eating in this world.

thanks be to God that God doesn't ever give up on me. when i want to be "normal" or when i choose to not think about what i'm eating, grace abounds. there's another meal to prepare, another meal to long for, another meal to think about. there are more muffins to make from recipes that need a little tampering.

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